I’m here. It’s been a couple of weeks since I fell off the wagon but I’m still here. So much has happened since my birthday. Lot’s of unexpected events have caused me to question everything that I’m doing. Nothing really makes sense to me right now. It’s probably NOT a good idea for me to be blogging about it either. I hate to just add fuel to any of it.
As a result I have begun working out more not less. I’m praying but I can’t seem to make sense out of things. I’m trying to physically exhaust myself into a better place. Honestly it’s not working but I keep thinking that it’s a better route than taking up drinking or stuffing myself with yummy stuff that is bad for me just to feel better for the moment. I have tried it and it just doesn’t really work for me. lol – Thank goodness I have a great support network of people that I work out with and they call me to meet up for a work out so I just keep showing up! Thank God. I don’t know what I would do without them all. I don’t want to be that person that complains either. I don’t want to be that person where people just don’t want to talk to you because they don’t want to hear about your problems. Honestly, I don’t want to share my problems. I rather pretend they don’t exist, but that’s hard to do. It’s the HUGE white elephant that follows me every where! People ask, “hey so what’s up with the elephant?” Sigh…
- The long term goal 37 pounds by the end of the year.
- The short term goal lose 3 lbs. per month.
- January 172 – 160 = 12 pound loss
- February 165 – 161 = 4 pound loss
- March 166- 165 = 1 pound loss
- April 165 – 162 = 3 pound loss
- May 163 -164 = 1 pound gain
- June 165 –