Many bloggers will take the holidays off and either pre-schedule posts or notify readers that they will back in the New Year. Normally this has not been my practice and I’ve maintained my blog. Two days before Christmas my grandmother went to the emergency room. My non-blogging responsibilities took over and most everything else fell by the way side.
My family spent the entire week making trips to and from her hospital room. There were more hospital staff in and out of that room making it hard to keep track of their names. Christmas was celebrated a little differently.
It was incredibly difficult to focus on anything other than what was going on with her. My focus was no longer social media, blogging, research or anything in my inbox. All of it seemed so unimportant. The only job I focused on was the project I was hired to do. That was a nice distraction at the time. All that week I wasn’t eating right or working out and I was living off of Starbucks, not good at all.
Once she was in the clear and able to come home everyone went back to their normal routines. The New Year came and went and there I was still stuck in neutral. I’m not sure if I burned out or just had a major shift in priorities. I’m just now able to sit down and write about it.
I realize that I have been doing it all wrong. For example on Monday’s I would take my laptop with me during ballet class. I would work while my son did homework but not this Monday. Instead I told him to grab a board game so we could play together. It is rare to get one on one time with my kids. Why was I not taking advantage of these moments before?
I realized that I had been lost. I had been lost in the quest to make a name for myself. Lost in trying to revamp my blog with hopes of monetizing and creating an ebook and all sorts of other plans. None of that seemed to be a priority any more. As I watched more and more goals and blog planners for 2014 being published it didn’t seem to make any difference.
While going through my inbox I ran across a post by Lisbeth Darsh called Lessons From The Twisted Beast. It’s a great article if you get a chance to read it. She talks about trying to give up that control. This was the first blog post that I had read or commented on in 3 weeks.
Today I caught an article called For The Weary Blogger which is another great read about blogging burn out and giving yourself permission to take a break. If you are having a hard time getting your groove back these are great reads.
My project with CrossFit Tidal Wave lasted through the month of December and I knew that the first thing I needed to do in the new year was to get back in the gym. It took me about 2 weeks before I could get my head back into a place where I wanted to make goals for 2014.
I think I have found a new home base box for me at Chalk Monkey CrossFit. It’s been a blessing for me and now I feel less lost. I’m not sure if I’m fully back with my blogging mojo but I do feel better. Everything suffered during that week and I have a lot of work to do to get back on track. I feel blessed to be in a better place. What about you? Any strange New Year blues?